Wednesday, October 24, 2007


My family and i was recently evicted from our payment due to non payment. Everyone around me family and society has suddenly deemed me an outcast and deadbeat. Whats interesting is I got evicted because i took a chance at achieving my goal of starting Grow To Be magazine (written to inspire people to achieve their dreams) Which by the way will launch Nov 15th. I pushed to sell ad space to produce a hard copy 20k and pay the bills. Obviously i came up short. Okay really short.
But as we exited our asbestos filled apartment i started to realize several things. The first being that we shouldnt have moved into those damn buildings in the first place. But most importantly that i was finally on the path to believing in myself and my ideas. Although i failed at achieving my financial goal for the magazine and our living I did accomplish pulling together a group of writers, photographers, and editors to create the first issue. Which means i can do it again. The most important lesson is that now that ive hit the bottom i can only go up. Which has given me such a postitive attitude and tremendous amount of confidence that i know our situation will change in a matter of days.
My path lead me to downtown denver the other day to promote my magazine and i was asking people did they Grow to be what they wanted. And it was interesting to see the pain in their answers. I mean Im homeless and positive and happy in creating my magazine and the majority of people who treated me as a human and stopped complained. They had regrets, and some even envyied me. They had "safe jobs" making money and living in their own places and envyied me for following my dreams. It was this day that helped me and reaffirmed my belief in my goals and dreams!!!! Ultimately i have learned that SLOW PROGRESS SHOULDN'T BE MISTAKEN FOR FAILURE!!!

Friday, June 15, 2007

I threw away the winning lottery ticket!

I threw away the winning lottery ticket!

The realtiy of a self-employed bum
Have you ever had the winning lottery ticket and didn't cash it in? Have you ever had the ability to make something positive happen in your life but chose to not act. This is something that we all experience. I personally have a business idea that can not only put food on the table, keep my family and i from being evicted, but propel us into a higher tax bracket. Unfortunately it wasn't the right path, why am I reading this guys post he's an idiot you may be thinking to yourself. Well I have to agree with you to a certain extent. However let me finish my point. I could also easily go get a corporate gig and do the same thing, but would i be happy? Hell no. So the idea I had, I did work it and actually made money. One phone call made me $1200. But my heart wasn't in it and I begin to hate the situation. More importantly this idea was not finish being created in my mind. I saw the dollar signs and jumped in to fast. And after grinding my wheels in this unfinished goldmine I had to swallow my pride and haul it all in. This my seem easy to stop a business but I actually had to return checks. All the while hungry. But I quickly understood that it was the right idea just wrong focus.

"To be once defeated is to find cause for an everlasting struggle to reach the top!" M Garvey

I came across that quote last night while reading and it immediately reminded me of the many times I have failed in business, life, and love. And how each time it hurt or embarrassed me and caused me to second guess myself. But through it all I haven't given up my goals and dreams. Something that I can honestly say I didn't realize until reading this quote. During my quest to start an independent entertainment and promotions company I have made several bad decisions, that failed and caused me to lose money. But through it all I always found a way to dust myself off and fight back. And through it all I have refined my idea to where it was supposed to be to make me happy and content with life and allow me to make the impact I was put here to make.

Read the quote and write down the greatest comeback you have had after a failure. And I challenge you to honestly look at your life and determine if you are on the correct path and if your happy with what you grew to be.